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Enough is enough.

I've had enough of biting my own lips, complaining in my own head, how much I disliked this blog.

This blog so shallow, it fails to speak much about myself, failing to mirror anything beneath the surface.
It functioned as a report of what I've did.
It functioned as a publicity tool to help promote the event I'm running.

I guess, the best function I did with it,
was appreciating my friends of what they've did. :)
Of course, I do meant what I said,
they must be that great that, even when I never find time to write about my feelings or thoughts or a bad day I've been through, they seem to give me enough drive and motivation to finish up a long post about them.


However, the least I could do without is for another person to think that just because I'm Bouncy, bouncy and jumpy all the time, means I'm not subjected to the downfall of 'gravity'.
I only made a choice to rebounce quicker.

I have this weird mentality that where ever I'm present, I always want to make people Happy, it's my utmost priority and obligation.
Putting other people's happiness over my own (even by the means of making myself the dumbest girl on earth, a classic example like,"Think vienna think!" should find it's place in cinematography effect for the audience's viewing pleasure to make them happy category).

Maybe in my subconscious mind, I believe if "Everyone's happy, I'm happy", otherwise I don't know why I always want to make sure everyone's laughing and happy, hmm..
I don't know if I did made people happier, but if I'm trying too hard next time, tell me.

Finally, I suppose the name *BabyVv* doesn't do much justice for people to think otherwise, it sounded either like a bimbotic plastic girl or a cutesy wannabe.
(I didn't get this link myself!)

Now, The end of a mouthful of murmurs.

Haha, looking back, this post probably sounded pretty awful, but i'm feeling great now! that I got all my grunts, grumble, mumble out ! =D

Also, It's probably time to announce that I'm shifting to a new blog! =)
A blog that would speak more about myself.
I hope this time, I would fulfill my promise to myself.

You know, I have so much to write about.
So much thoughts to share about rather than this blog with just an egg layout with happy, jumpy, bouncy content.
It's never all that.
So much from Malaysia Leadership Development Seminar, to Youth dhamma camp, to National Youth Entrepreneur Convention to Celcom League of Extraordinary Developers which my team just won RM150k grant.

There is much more to me, things that I wished I could write about.


But being Vienna, she just doesn't allocate enough time to write.
That's about it.

YDC17 :) A Seed of Hope.

Just a song I love on my playlist :)

My Great Mistake by Marie Digby

Everyone is in a hurry
To get up, get out, get on
When I'd rather be climbing up a tree
And trying to get some sun
Oh no no

Why the hurry
What are you chasin'
Do you even know
Don't rush me, I wanna figure this out on my own
In my own own way
Let me go, let me grow, let me fly away
cause if I don't, it'll be my great mistake

All my friends are worried
Say that I'm such a crazy girl
Cause I'm just dancin'
Don't need a reason in this crazy world

No one knows
Why you runnin'
There's no one comin'
Do you even know
Don't rush me, I wanna figure this out on my own
In my own own way
Let me go, let me grow, let me fly away
Cause if I don't, it'll be my great mistake

Days go by
Too many people
They're all the same
I wanna laugh in water
Feeling all like a child again
Don't rush me, I wanna figure this out on my own
In my own time

Let me go, let me grow, let my fly away
Cause If I don't it'll be my great mistake
Let me go, let me grow, let me fly away

Cause if I don't it'll be my great mistake. :)

Things that has happened.

Every breath I took felt so deep.

If you'd given me one minute, there's a gazillion things that I could just mumble about in a mouthful. U know ;) (like psst! One minute isn't even enough for One of my lame jokes!) me with all those rubbish & my Crappy-dabby-doo talks!

But somehow when it comes to speaking about my innate thoughts and feelings, I'm a badbad paradox.
I once read Pei hao blog,

So how well do you actually express yourselves? Of course there is like lots and lots of ways to express your feeling, so what do you normally respond to people? And you most probably will go like:" Well, it pretty much depends on what scenario? who is that person? and also whats my mood?"

do you realise what you responded most of time will be how people look at you or define you but deep down you know that it is just a small part of you. Have you been called the happy go lucky one or joke master or mr. Nice Guy or mr.Cool or Kinky girl or hot tempered or horny guy, I mean it is not necessary that they have a nick name for you but you are somehow fall to a category in them. And when you fall into that category, you would actually somehow lived up to it without realising! Only until someday that when you can't stand it anymore that you realise that its time to change and you will need to discover yourselves all over again.

Expressing it is something rather difficult to me. I'm the type of person who will do anything but to admit my own feelings, of how I'm actually feeling.

Ie: If there's a good fruit, I would shout my lungs out to get absolutely everyone I could to share and eat it with, but if there's a bad fruit, I would throw & bury it in my own backyard, so that no one could see it. (I'd rather suffer and cry by myself, but share my happiness with others. I want others to be happy, not sad.) 

So what if it kicks in, and people do stereotype me as the O-hei-yoh-happy-happy-happy girl~
Whose everyday in her life is filled with rainbow, sunshine, sugar, spice and everything nice.
Seems like a pretty not bad thing.
If I'm given the choice, I would rather want to be someone who knows only A,B,C than one who knows from A to Z.

If I could control everything,
I would make you bow down ballerina style and I'll command you to fetch me, ur highness a Rainbow coloured Apple!

But seriously, if I could control something in the world, I would want to put an end to the need for tears & sufferings.

I'm blessed enough to be able to live this life with all my needs and wants fulfilled.

Sometimes as I reflect upon the course of my life, every experiences that I've encounter, I'm just plain glad that I'm born into this family and have lived the life as Looi Vien Na :D

So corny. x)
But it's quite an awesome life to live by, really ! =D

I like the quote from the movie 'Money Not Enough'-

The poorest moment isn't when your pocket is empty,
it is when ur pocket is full yet everything else felt empty.
You are missing something money can't buy, Love.

Perhaps it's because I watched it with my family,
in which at so many points, the story relates to us so much.
So much, that I never recalled sobbing so much.
It's because I felt it.

My family,
*took a big breathe*
isn't the most perfect family.

Since young, to pay the bills & to raise us up, daddy mommy had to work.
They however work at ungodly hours, when I was young, I used to see them twice a week. Why so? It's because they come back from work at 12am? 2am? 3am? when I'm asleep, and when I've hopped on the Aunty's car to school, they're still asleep.
We don't get to eat together as a family, if we do gather for dinner, it'll be once a week, or rather, none.

Through the years, I failed to realise how matters has became among us, especially in between us brothers and sisters.
It wasn't until recently that I realised that, I was such an ignorant & nonchalant big sister all these years.

Witnessing the sight of your family slowly breaking apart in front of your very eyes, the bond between the siblings tormented & fading away and your parents arguing and having thoughts of divorcing was the most painful thing one could suffer.
It was for me.

I really could not afford to, not even imagining that happening.

There was a time, that mommy and grandma argued, mommy couldn't stand it and ran out of the house.
At that moment, I was striked by thoughts that I'll never ever get to see mommy again, I crumbled deep down inside, but when all cried, I know I could not afford to, as the eldest of them all in the family.

I could have did something.
That's when I started doing something. Up till today, I didn't know if what I did was right: informing mommy's family about what's happening, bringing my siblings out to search for mommy, spending hours to to communicate with daddy, then mommy, and then telling daddy what mommy think, and telling mommy what daddy thinks, trying to pull my parents back together again....

I don't know if I've helped things.
I just can't not do anything about it.


What mommy said that I was focussing so much effort outside, rather than into the family brought me down to tears.
I should have put in more effort into the family, as the eldest in the family when daddy mommy is not around.

I hope it's not all too late.

But I'm trying.


I really hope that I could fix things before I'm off to Poland.

Anna,
I guess I won't be able replace the position of your friends in your heart. I started way too late to care for you. In my heart, you're still the Japanese little dollie anna, so really obedient & good girl. I only hoped that you would share with me your problems like you did when ur bestie is leaving you, I can give you a hug, I can listen to you, and I will be here for you, always, for the rest of your life.
I'll not leave you. I love ya,ann.

Joo,
Last time, Daddy mommy used to plead me to talk to you whenever they fail to. You used to be so stubborn, so headstrong and rebellious. I finally managed to convince you that the reason why daddy was so hard against you, was only because he loved you.
As your jie, I'm really really proud that you've grown up so much. :)
It's surprising I get to communicate with you pretty well, you're the person who knows most of what I'm doing.
Pls take care of the family when I'm gone kay?

Seh,
You're the youngest in the family, I used to think that you're really naughty and complained to mommy that you never want to listen to grandma. But you proved me wrong, few days ago, you were advising anna instead. :) haha, i was so proud. I was crying and laughing. Sometimes, I feel that although being the youngest, you have the best mind of us all. You're so young, yet you know so much, that I didn't know when I was your age. Seh, I know I haven't been talking enough and cared of your needs, all I thought of was daddy mommy's budget over your feelings. Forgive jie jie kay?

Mommy,
Please don't work till so late. I'm worried of your safety (remember to keep the pepper spray that i bought for you along with you) Above everything, I'm really worried for your health.
Eating dinner at 3am, sleeping at 5am, waking up at 9am, even robots wouldn't have lasted as long as you did. In tears, you told me, that you never get to live your life for yourself. :( and how you wished that you could sleep today & never wake up tomorrow? It used to hurt me so much because I tried & still I can't do anything but to cry with you.
But mommy, I see that you're happier of late, please still keep it that way when I'm gone :)
Mommy, try to sub your workload out even if it costs more $, in this case money can buy us a healthier & happier mommy. Take good care of yourself first because a Sick mommy can't take care of us.

Daddy,
You are a great daddy to me, some little things that you talked to me about, showed how wise & knowledgeable a person you are. The way you think, is none of the ordinary. However,I realised that all the qualities you've is gone-your patience & wisdom when it comes to matters dealing with grandma. Whatever things obstructing grandma's priority seems to be kicked away by you. I really love granny too, and I don't mean to put her needs aside. I understand that grandma is the most important person to you, but shall you think a little of others, just a little, with the calm & wise mind that you have, give some thoughts before another flame is thrown at others because of granny.
And daddy, remember to abide by the *New Looi family House Rule* that I set ok? Hohoho!
Bring the whole family out to club for swimming & sports every Sunday, 9am!! (u asked why? because if it's too late, we'll end up Char Siew Yok!)
And, Love not just us, above all, Love Your Wife ah ~!

Have you forgotten?
She's the reason of a family.

And why there's a family.

HAPPWEE MOO YEAR !

PUISH SLOW DOWN! PUISH SLOW DOWN !

It's just my dad,

he was joking about the GPS he bought me, he was commenting on how slow he was driving and the GPS device keeps telling him that at 50 KM/H - he's driving too fast! And at 40KM/H, it still goes like......

"PUISH SLOW DOWN! PUISH SLOW DOWN !" O.O"
^ Yeah, he said Puish instead of Please.
Hahaha I was having a hearty laugh from it, it's just the way he jokes about things and taking life rather light-heartedly. =)
In my heart, he's always this Ridiculous & Generous man, with the river of wisdom flowing deep within.

My dad is awesome! =)

Awhile later, mom's complaining about sis being too Sampat! haha according to mommy, sis is laughing too loudly for a girl. Incoming the bro who interupted "COME ON LA, I EVERYDAY in class also can HEAR HER VOICE LIKE imitating her laughter *HAHAHA* *HAHAHA*
It's definitely not my bad influence! *covers face* Like SINCE WHEN am I laughing very loudly? NEVER!

It must be my mom's ear, being over sensitive! Like Totally! 1000%!
*Thoughts to self* Since that's in here to stay for awhile, maybe instead of covering my mouth next time ,
i Could cover her EARS !
;) Heh. I'm so smart!

Back to my blog, I think I've been a "Slacker Blogger" as someone from the Land of Baa-Baa-Black Sheep Eric would call it!
It have been on some kinda long hiatus gua, I reckon x) sorreee.

I was really just a tad busy and because I wouldn't be able to finish a whole post, so I save & save AND Save, LOOK! now I have 108 Drafts?

Haha there's 2 things about this blog that I would go "Hai-ya-ya" about:

One! It's so Messyyy !
Two! BabyVv is like ahhhhhhhh!! Grow up larh Vienna ! U think ur the cutesy-3-year-old baby girl who goes around screaming "Ahh! mommy mommy,I love my Barbie-dolll~~~~! "
For your kind information, vienna didn't named her own blog, her friend did, who was a fanatic fan of Vannesa Hudgens aka BabyV. And so
the powerpuff girls
BabyVv was born!

Conclusion:
And SOO albeit the name sounded very cutesy & childish, it's not my fault!
SOO, I don't have to correct what's Wrong with it right?

Awesome logic, vienna!

Mommy provided me with a very well off education, as a kid.

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We were at Pyramid for 2009 countdown !
Pictures pictures, more pictures?
Scroll down for more!

Oh wait......

Just in case u don't know!
Vienna does best at Sitting down, laying back, goyang kaki, minum air & wait for her friends to TAG HER!
YUP! THAT'S WHAT SHE DOES BEST !

Some stats as shown on facebook:
314 photos,
4 photos uploaded by her mighty SELF,
310 photos uploaded by OTHERS.

I wouldn't even tag myself, even though I saw myself in the picture,
haha! Purposely WAN!

I think I owe some BIG thank you to the Significant OHERS for uploading pics of me & thought of tagging Me in the pics! ;)

Though most of the time, they just Choose to upload the most SIGNIFICANTLY SILLY ONES!

Which results in most of the time, I felt like untagging myself SO BADLY! because it accumulates my Silly-ness factor! Awesome job,guys! =(

The reason I didn't untag those *Drop Dead
Gorgeous
Stupid* picture is that, well, I still believe that, at the end of the day, staying True to yourself is the most important thing. =)


Since Janice oh Jan Jan haven't been tagging me in any pictures from yesterday, hahaha

I'll just recap a little on what happened in 2008 =)
Note: I grabbed ALL of this from my facebook profile!
So nothing new larh... *shy* So HAHAHA.
I wouldn't take picture of myself, but when ppl asks me to take a picture with them, i just happen to camwhore too much. Weird. hahahaha.



It was just a simple Christmas dinner With irresistible&Delicious++ turkey with stuffings! Pei Li! Pls remind ur mom that she owes me her Recipe! but nothing could be more heartwarming than that =)
And Good-Ole-PM4 is just the people you need that could make you go Ho-ho-ho, Ha-ha-ha, He-he-he, laughing all-NIGHT-LONG ! =)

Quoting my lamyan: (in her fav corour,right right?)

I don't recall having laughed so much since ...and I haven't let myself go loose this much since ...

I wish time could have just freezed at that moment ...

Might not be the most creative material to have just copy pasted, but it was what I felt like saying too. *smiles* and another *smile*

Pls, PM-4 lets gather again, soon, ie: for Chinese New Year kay!

(whisper to self an evil plan: must win away all their ang pow money!)



Well, so cool larh! haha that we're all doing the Lala 1 to 7 pose!
Guess who thought of it?
- I.Inspire. -






YOUTH SHAKERS '08 !!




ehh...sleepy d.... ........



























Miss Egypt Universe 2008.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=52519416039

Blog update is interrupted.....

OH MY BUDDHA MY SISTER CHI SIN ALREADY !
SHE SUPERRRRRR GILLAAAAAA SAMPAT !!!!
KAO KAO SIAO CHAR BOR!!!!
CHAR SIEW PAO!!!!! CHAR KUEH TEOWWWW !!
Kind of GILAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

APPARENTLY, her best friend - Shen Ai aka COPYRIGHT SUPERHUMAN. is someone I know from Taylor's sister.
They were talking on the phone! And my sister bergabung with his sister dragged both of us into talking on the phone!
They have evil plans of turning me into mrs.lai (note:Not zhern yung), so they can be IN-LAWS and can SAMPAT together everyday !
They were LAUGHING SO Loudlyyyyy....~!!

They are in a Level & state I call - the SAMPAT *Godlike* mode.
It WAS really WEIRD & FUNNY.
I never felt so awkward on a telephone conversation.
Apparently, according to Him, I have a very GOOD reputation in Taylors of forgetting my things around......
(Even, my TUA Pau sized brain failed in comprehending that in ANYway, that forgetting my things around can result in a famous yet GOOD reputation! Logic failed.)

AND ZHERN YUNG,
are you the one who Spilled the beans all around Taylors?!
MY SISTER FRIEND - COPYRIGHT SUPERHUMAN also said that YOU ARE REALLY BLUR & CUTE !!!!


Walao-weh !
KIDS NOWADAYS......